Four Months!

Caleb turned four months old yesterday. Ahh! He's getting so big and strong. It's super exciting and just a little sad that I won't have him as a baby forever. He's getting close to sitting up on his own and enjoys "standing." Overall he's happier and happier all the time. I love it!

We didn't do a real photo-shoot (at least not yet), but here's two of him on Saturday. He kind of has a funny expression here, but you can see his beautiful blue eyes so well that I just had to post it.


Here he is smiling at the Daddy.


Today is also my last day of work. (!!!) I'm turning in my computer this afternoon, so don't be surprised if you don't hear from me for a while. I'm 98% ecstatic to be done with that job and be a full-time mom, 1% sad about losing the laptop, and 1% sad about losing the income. It feels strangely surreal to suddenly be living the life I always wanted. My heart is hesitant to believe it fully just yet - like it's really too good to be true.


Last night I dreamt that I returned to Germany to serve another mission and after a few days of fun being a missionary and speaking German, I suddenly remembered Tyler and Caleb and was just desperate to know if they'd take me back. (Wouldn't you? Look how adorable they are!!) I felt terrible and anxious and so worried. I was incredibly relived to wake up and find Tyler next to me. :)

For years since my mission, I really would have gone again if I would have been allowed. It really was my dream. But it's not anymore. My dream is here and I'm living it!